Is That Too Much To Ask??

Food.
G-a-w-w-h.

I.

Love.
It.

I am not a person who can stick to a strict diet that eliminates entire food groups . I am food and taste lover. Two people in my office are strict diets. One is doing no carbs {I would wither up and die, for sure!} And the other’s doing those shakes.  

They both have lost weight and look great. But I just can’t bring myself to stop eating food. Especially, foods I love, like carbs. I have tried to be better about portion control and educating myself on how many calories/fat/carbs things I eat have,  which has helped me push food away, but I cannot give stuff up!   

Then my evil-troll-twin in my head gets on FB and sees other people posting pictures of them in bikinis at the beach; and I think and wonder and compare myself to them. I go to the beach at the end of the month. Is my body bikini ready, err no.  Last year I wore a whole piece. Here’s why:

1)      Timothy couldn’t walk yet, so I knew a majority of my time was going to be spent rolling around in the sand and chasing a crawling baby. I didn’t really feel like I needed to expose my “Britney” to everyone or any other part of myself to beach goers.

2)      I needed to stay covered up! I know, there’s always someone strutting around in bathing suit they have no business wearing in public. But I didn’t want to be one of those people.

Here are my goals at the beach for this year:

1)      Feel good about myself on the beach.

2)      Be able to play with T without worrying about “things” popping out.

 As you can see, I don’t have a laundry list of things  I am wanting from the beach this year. Just a couple things that will make me feel good about me.  

Is that too much to ask?